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Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
2:52 am
ahhh
im sooo tired. but i cant go to sleep.
itsbeen a whileee since ive updated. i cant get on LJ from my computer..
well things have been swell .. kinda.
megan moved to florida. not too sure if shes coming back =/ christina is in new york. and im taking a break from the boys.
me and cameron. are whutever. i recently stoppped talking to him. but like last time im sure we will again. who knows. who cares.
school is starting and its flippin crazy. i cant believe it came so fast. but i know itll fly by. im dropping all my friggin classes. no yearbook.. no math. hopefully only have 4 classes. if my counselor doesnt decide to be a bitch. well hope all is well with everyone out there =)
hydeee

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Monday, July 5th, 2004
2:37 pm
wow
been so busy lately.
havent updated cuz my comp at home is slow and drives me crazy. and im at my dads so this shit works.
well happy 4th!!! (yesterday)
me, meg, sara, and ashley drove down to the beach. we took my car, but shush my mom doesnt know. we drove down to corona, stayed at ramonas in san margarita, then the next day we drove to newport and it was really fun. we rented a 'surry' adn megan was driving it. we almost ran into a truck and we got pushed into a wall. it was so funny, almost pissed my pants like 5 times. i loved it. tomrorow is warped tour. and jimmy, nol, and danika, and my bro are coming with me. san diego here i come~! hope i get a tan.
so much has happened since my last entry....
my step mom passed and we had the funeral etc. my little sis practically lives with me. i might be moving in with my dad, or staying with him a lot. nico passed...and his memorial was on my bday. we celebrated my bday all weekend. met people from natalia and danika. jessica mata hung out with us for once. me and brian became closer. etc etc. met a boy named cameron. met him at a stop light. lol. and we talk all the time. hes in canada now. but he will return haha
oh and bonnie is back in georgia. she will return too. love you gurl
i love my friends. =)

Current Mood: busy

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Thursday, June 3rd, 2004
9:33 pm
...
good times in havasu...
waited till like 9pm to actually leave
so we chilled at josh dornans for a little bit and i almost fell asleep
waited for tyler, kevin, duran, and big bird.
it took us whut seemed like forvever
and we stayed at crazy horse
me n megan walked around and pulled an all nyter. i thot havasu didnt sleep? well at 4am everyone was passed out
excpet p-nut and tony. and shea?
well blah blah. i miss the crew and i had so much fun. im glad i got to chill with megan all weekend.
tyler and zane <33 hahaha
i had a great weekend.. but when i got home i got some bad news,,,
my step mom had passed away.. she got to weak or something. she didnt make it... r.i.p..

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Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
10:16 am
finger lickin good
yesterday.. i got my hair cut and i hate it...
but i dont really care. hair grows back and i theres no one in this std filled valley that i am trying to impress. is that true about the blood drive? that our school has stds? ewww. it makes u wanna curl up in a ball and never hook up with anyone again. im glad that i dont go around doing shit with just anyone. sligh and a-ron came to bonnies last night. sligh did all these wrrestling moves on me and since im so small i juss curl up in a ball and shit. i kneed myself in the face lol yah i thought i was gonna have to go to school explaining to people that i gave myself a black eye. but thank god it only got a lil swollen for a minute. my contact flew out tho. haha went to the pool and i got thrown in.. again! fuck man. it was kool. my friends are kool. luv it. sligh talked to me about 38475sjfhsdkf and whatever. grubbin at bonnies is tha best! hha ill be there after school k girl! she brought me a bagel from einsteins this morning! fuck i love you! this weekend better go off.. whether i go to havasu or not.. im gonna have fun. i better go somewhere though?! live it up biatch.
hydee j

Current Mood: chipper

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Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
11:33 pm
drip drop dont u waste it
once again.. me and adam are bored out of our minds in 4th period.
yearbooks should be here by the 1st of june or the 3rd the latest. yea ya.
yesterday me n brother hung out and wutev.
had to go to slghs and pick up manuels work clothes. and he was there. and i didnt want to see him..
brought manuel his clothes and saw joey..its weird how we dont talk at all. not since freshman year. we used to be close as fuck too. yep.
today me n a-ron are gonna go to bonnies. chilllll.. tomorrow im gonna pick u up and we';re gonna do our thang. hahah see how school is that way.
years almost over... make the most of it.
i parked in some weird spot today.. totally random. but away from people i dont even talk to.
peace out .

Current Mood: bored

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Monday, May 24th, 2004
10:21 am
me n will are gonna be friends again.. well we're trying to be.
manuel left his work clothes at slighs and hes screwed
im trying nnot to text anymore cuz im way over my limit.
im gonna get in trouble by my mom.
me n brother bear are gonna hang out today
and i like the way you dance hahaha

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8:32 am
hey yaaaa
this weekend was aite.
friday we went to slighs as usual. i was sober though! we had people from garrins juss come to his house. so it was pretty chill. joanne "15" showed up! it was great. i saw her at st fair and i didnt think id see her again. but she was at the kick back and she was drunk! haha she held it in for a little bit. till whuts his fuck kissed her. and she barfed.! sorry dude. didnt go home till 3am.
saturday was prom. got a late start on getting ready and was fucken rushed the whole entire time. what the fuck...=/ bonnie, ash k, kinsey, and i went to the mall and was wack. didnt get home till 5.. had to pick up manuel from work at 745..take him to slighs.. pick up big mike, and we were off to prom. ya, going to prom that early was a bad idea. thanks a lot bonnie. wouldnt dance cuz the dj was playing the lamest music. first dance was with mike and of course it had to be a slow song huh. lol i had to look up to him and my neck started to hurt. since ur so swole n all! haha. thanks kinsey for telling him what i said!!! haha punk. then i just danced with the girls then mike. i accidently spilled my drink on bonnies dress.. so sorry. good we only wear black huh!? haha
well we bounced around 11:30 and picked up joanne. we headed back over to slighs and it was already packed. got my drinks and i was still juss buzzing. i was so pissed. but it was good to see evryone. to chill. meet new people. hang with people.
it was a good weekend... can't wait till memorial weekend!
hydums

Current Mood: exhausted

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Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
9:47 pm
2-1-2
painted some shit in art which is way fun =/ was so excited when the bell rang at 8:45am..meaning it was a fucken 2-1-2. saw mrs rossi and we decided we wanted bagels. so she went to einsteins and brought us some grub. soo yummy. i eat wayyyy too much now. and im sad about it. im wearing yellow.. its kinda weird. hah
yesterday i went to bonnies and did homework for once. we decided to go to the mall and look up prom shit. she stole my dress from windsors. shes hardcore. haha. juss like last year huh!? she decided she wantd to go too. so it'll be great. ur mom can make us dinner again! save me money! haha. party party party this weekend. there better be some. mayo n a-ron be ready by 11pm!
we blazed up her backyard again and i think her plants permanantely smell like bud. haha. we can get high juss sitting near them! jk. all it did was make me tired and hungry. which i hate. so i went home and crashed at 8pm. woke up to a text from you! and ur wackkk. ha =) wutev im bored. peace. schools almost out people!
lets go to the river?!

Current Mood: tired

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Tuesday, May 18th, 2004
10:31 am
we've been waiting for yearbook to end so we can do nothing. and now we are regretting it. we sit here all day and sit on the computers. after awhile its not that fun anymore. =/ not only that, adam and i have this class twice! so we sit here doing shit even longer. i dont do homework so that cant be an option. but wutev.
i feel really sick right now. im worried bout what the doctors gonna say. what can be so wrong about my cells?
yesterday bonnie and i picked up a-ron and we chilled. she bought a sack and we called big swole over :) and all it resulted in was me getting thrown in the pool. skirt on and everything. bitch! so, plans for prom? hmmm.. i decided that since im only going to prom for a little bit, that i shouldnt go all out this year. and my dress.. ill wear the same from last year, but bonnies mom is gonna do a bunch of shit to it to make it look somewhat different. i could care less. i juss need something to wear atleast. hope ya'll have a blast at prom. make memories! cause these are gonna be your last till graduation.
my fuck, you need a ticket juss to get into graduation!? i wanna see my friends graduate! i do every year.. so i need to go on a mission to find some extra tickets =/ geez.
im sure ill be updating tomorrow since theres nothing better to do in this class... holla

Current Mood: sick

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Monday, May 17th, 2004
11:33 pm
do you want it in ur pizzle
christal juss called mrs rossi haggard and it was hilarious. kinda mean, but hilarious. this weekend was needed. it was too fun. saw my manuel and i love him to death. what'd i do without you? adam is showing me a girl he hooked up with in the summer. haha geez adam. we heard the themes for homecoming next year, one of them is 'jungle fever' lol and rossi doesnt know what that means? hehe. goiin for the las vegas theme tho.
friday : went to six flags and i was so tired and was with bonnie. and the avid class. 6 flags was not too fun. the boys called me and hurried me to get ready. tried to make it to steve garcias party, but i wasnt ready on time. so we met up with the boys at selenas? house. i duno it was aite. saw sara rodea and ash g and a bunch of people. but i wantd to drink so we left. drank with big swole, and were wasted for the night. it was great. i threw up. big mikes words of wisdom: "when you drink liquor too fast, its an unknown substance in your system.. all coming in at once and leaving all at once. then your body goes through shock and you get a headache and a hangover." haha um thanks for the advice... couldve helped the day before~ thanks dude. we crashed at slighs house and i had a mad hangover. they all took care of me and i loved it. i love when you spoil me <3 let manuel drive and we went to carls. i duno i had a good time. everythings great. sat: went to bonnies and crashed. tried to get over a my hangover. YOU came and hung out with me. and it was lovely. haha i love cuddling. haha. well till next weekend! PROM is going to go down.. (not) well maybe for the whole 10 min that ill be there. =) peace out
hydeeee "drunken monkey" lol mayo

Current Mood: amused

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Thursday, May 13th, 2004
10:53 am
mrs rossi had me n adam return a bunch of books to the librario. we made two trips. and now i smell like sun, sweat. and nastyness. juss saw vince.. and hes hot like fiya. haha =/ subway here my fat ass comes. we did an ab video in aerobics and we did 300+ crunches. no joke. tomorrow 6 flags with avid class. and then we goin out! <3 and i hope i see you! fuck i smell. brother filled my gas tank! yea ya. well i have nothing to say. peace
heidums

Current Mood: hot

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Monday, May 10th, 2004
8:15 am
"fuck it" fuck it adam! hahaha
lol my weekend?friday faded with r.s. and danika. and mofizzle. we chilled. and i ate mad ice creammm!!! yum. im on the pill and i get faded every other day.. im gonna be gaining some weight. so we're gonna try and cut back ok? this weekend me and the boys are going to the beach and have a bar bq. yep yep. saturday my mom took me shopping again and me n eric got into van helsing for freeeee. i love and miss manuel sooo much. it was fun to see him again. happy motherfucken mothers day., we went to brunch and then i called up myko, mayo, and a-ron. chilled. bought me food. and we grazed. met up with chris sligh who was drunker than drunk. heh no not really. but hes a cool kid. it sucks that im getting close to my old friends right before they all graduate and leave.. =(.. i dunno
now that you're not here ive been so much happier. i dont need to stress about anything. im not hurting anymore. i dont need to go outta my way anymore. everything has been so great lately. i needed this. everything happeened for a reason. ive realized that all my problems lately have came from you. and that all you have done to me was lie. i dont even know you anymore. i fucked up and lost a friend over you. when we were having fun you step in and fuck things up. whether i took things outta hand or not, you're an asshole and you knew what was coming.

Current Mood: blah

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Friday, May 7th, 2004
11:12 pm
yah wutever i said in last entries or whutever. i dont even care anymore/ lets drop this shit. im tired of whut people say or hear. im tired of caring for someone whos only lied to me the whole time. im tired of losing friends over stupid shit. ive lost william. lost most of my 'best friends' everything. i have shit left... making me care fucken less ... fuck school. fuck people. fuck this.
"wack attack and a half"outtie

Current Mood: straight

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8:07 am
yo
whutever fucken phrases and shit u talking bout. wutevs. i can giva fuck. the kill you shit or whutever. wtf. lol fucken ridiculous. you were dope but im over it. peace

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Thursday, May 6th, 2004
7:15 pm
=)
"Here i go scream my lungs out, and try to get to you. you are my only one. i let go but theres just no one. that gets me like you do. you are my only, my only one.."

"Everytime i hear that song its gonna remind me of you."
last night he came and to see me. we opened his sun roof and we looked at the stars. i named one after him and he named the closest one to it, after me.. "which one should yours be?" - "the furthest one from yours.." i was jk tho! we listened to yellowcard bout a million times. i dont care what people think. cuz hes great. his personality is awesome. and he makes me laugh. big plus. he doesnt make me feel all awkward. its just great.
today, i ditched school to cuddle.Ü so it seems like its already the weekend. my phone is screwed and i have to call to get sent a new one. im wayyy over my text messaging. so we might have a problem there.
and i love things.. for now.
and i want my movie back cunt ass.

Current Mood: crazy

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Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
11:19 pm
"Loserface"
i think we should put this on hold..
well im not gonna wait forever....
things dont go good for me for very long.
i dont stay happy for very long. but whutever thats life

yesterday danika n i went to work and i hate it. i hate working there. it makes me even more depressed.
had to make a phone call and it was just lame. i dont wanna lose you over this.
today i have to go back
my mom took me shopping and i got some more clothes. yippee..
then we all went out to dinner

two more days till the weekend. and i cant wait. i need to get my phone fixed before then.. that way my mom wont trip. and yah. where am i crashing? who knows. cuz plans changed. all i knows is that im getting fucked up and all of my... *many* .. my problems will.. *hopefully*...go away ...
hit me up this weekend and maybe if ur kool enough we can chill. ha jk call me or text yo 8318809

Current Mood: annoyed

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Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
10:23 am
finally
yearbook is finally over.. and i have nothing to do. so im gonna be updating a lot. fucken went home and slept. my cuddle bear text me and woke me up. geez. it was cute though. texted tyty and he came and borrowed a mo0ovie. sorry no spring break for u. "whats your favorite part of the male anatomy?" - "Weiners!.. I like weiners!" man good times... are over.
my mommys taking me shopping cuz all my shorts are to big. yea ya. i need money. and im going to work today. sucky. i need a new job, any suggestions? im having fun right now. and i love it. but i know it'll all back fire and then ill be miserable. but anyways lets not talk about that. ashley kkk where were you? we didnt hang out! my phone has so much chocolate in it. and it sucks. cuz all i can do is text now. and my text is all up. if u call me and u dont hear me talking. its cuz the choc. cuz im a fat kid. i can hear u talk but u cant hear me say shit. so yay. tomorrow = cuddle bear. today = sucky ass anderson mailing. this weekend = vince (white)'s house. and hopefully i dont get anyones car taken away again. peace

Current Mood: weird

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Monday, May 3rd, 2004
11:15 pm
brush it off
this weekend was something that i needed. except friday but yah. saturday: umm...i.... met up wit danika and natalia at the palm desert industry and we went over to olive garden and grazed on some food. headed up to augies and chilled. he lives in the middle of fucken no where. left his house at about 11 and met up wth vince...stewart i think? hes white. didnt do much there. there was a bunch of driving around. under the infuence. we had fun leave it at that. drank some vodka yum.. and went back to natalias. nickolas was there and he was mad. but w/e. i guess? i called a bunch of people at like 4 in the morning. they said i called "black' vince (osuna) and i got him in trouble. i dont remember how i got his number, but i remember talking to his mom? and she was mean =/. he got his car taken away after having it for like a week. im so sorry! i dont remember talking to him on the phone.. but i hope i didnt say something too stupid. woke up sunday to a text from tylergay. i felt like shit from the night before. i got 4 hours of sleep. went home and got ready and we went to brunch. hot as hell outside yo. went back to the middle of nowhere and me n augie chilled at his house. his moms dope. mike emmanuel showed up and it was kool. havent seen him in forever.. oh and on saturday i smoked with marvin and david lieberman. lol. and im outtie cuz this is wack as hell. im back into partying now. so ill be striaght for a littl bit. getting drunk keeps my mind off things...many fucken things... and prom here i come to barf my life away,. peace...
hydee hollaa

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Friday, April 30th, 2004
8:25 pm
....
"you're better off without him, dont call him. hes breaking your heart. * hes sitting with your best friend and its tearing you apart.* hes lied to you a thousand times...he kept you waiting.."
(*) not to sure that sentence was exact.. something bout best friend tho.
im so frustrated and mixed up. theres just so much shit happening to me at once. i cant take this. another one of these situations i have to deal with. i have to pick which words and stories are true or not. im sick of getting lied to. im sick of people going behind my back. im sick of people not caring about me. im sick of it all.
our friendship will never be the same. my trust will no longer be there. if something - someone so important to me , didnt stop you from hurting me... then nothing will. thats not a 'friendship' i dont see why u decided to do such a thing. after i took you to... to get... so you wouldnt get... you turn around and do that. if you guys wouldnt be all hush hush about it, then maybe i wouldnt have taken it so bad. i cant say much to him, cuz we're not going out. but i thot you understood. all girls know not to fuck with their friend's hook ups. w/e everythings changed whether we try to stay friends or not.....
i wish i didnt care about anything. lately things have been falling apart.. my step mom has been in the hospital for 3 months now. she was juss rushed to the ER the other day.. my puppy dies in front of me.. me n william hardly talk anymore. and i always do something to piss him off.. i have no interest in school.. i have a huge research project due next friday that i havent even started.. i have another research paper due, that i dont even plan on doing...im broke. seriously. i cant pay for my car, or cancun., work is getting slow so now i have to look for another job..im not close with anyone anymore...lost a friendship..and soon will lose someone that means a lot to me....
you want me to smile and be happy.. well give me soemthing to be happy about for once...

Current Mood: frustrated

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Thursday, April 29th, 2004
7:16 pm
"i love u mammas"
tomorrow will be one week since sheeba died... and i fucken hate everything about my life....

Current Mood: crappy

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